Last Clomid!

31 01 2010

So I’ve taken my five days worth of Clomid and I don’t know if I’ve had any side effects, which is good!

I say I don’t know because I’m still suffering the effects of last weekend and I’ve felt nauseous, I’ve been getting hot flashes and a bit of a sore head. But I would say I don’t feel like it was the Clomid, in that I don’t feel any worse than I had been feeling.

I’ve also felt the start of OV pains so I’m hoping when I go for the scan on Friday morning there will be one or two big follies!!! :o)


Let Clomid begin!

27 01 2010

As today is CD 2, I took my first 50mg Clomid pill.

The horrible thing is I’ve had gastroenteritis, I was really ill on Saturday night through to Sunday morning and I’m still not feeling great. As I’ve not actually been sick since Sunday morning I figured it’d be okay to start taking the Clomid…how could I not start taking it, I honestly couldn’t wait another month!

So I’m not feeling too great, got horrible AF cramps and I’ve started taking Clomid and I’m hoping if there are any side effects they’ll wait until the gastro sickness feelings pass, but to be honest if I do get side effects I’m willing to endure them…bring it on!! :o)

However… DH is now sick too! I’ve been trying to work out when we should start BD and I’m hoping by then DH will feel much better, how selfish of me?

According to what I’ve read, I’m likely to OV 5-9 days after taking my last Clomid pill. So that’s at least 10 days away, plenty of time for DH to get his appetite back :o)

Can’t wait to get this party started!!!!

Subfertility clinic

21 01 2010

I was back at the Fertility clinic yesterday to meet with the consultant there, it was the first time I’d met him.

He asked me what he could do for us and I said that I’d like to find out, if possible, why our first cycle of IVF didn’t work. He asked if our IVF consultant had given us any indications, when I said no, he said well it’s just unfortunate they you were in the 70% of people who are unsuccessful with IVF.

I asked if he could check whether I had a short luteal phase and he said it’s very unlikely (why do they always say that, surely someone has got to test positive to give us this rare percentage!). Anyway, I showed him a list of my cycles with the cycle length, ovulation date and luteal phase length. All he said is “Well if you have a cycle length of 31 days I’d expect you to ovulate sooner than day 21”!! He asked how I’d come to know when I OV’d and when I told him I’d been using OPK’s he just said that the problem wasn’t with me but with the OPK’s as these aren’t reliable!!!! I’m more angry typing this out than I was yesterday, I always feel inferior when meeting with consultants, I felt like I shouldn’t question him. I’m a grown woman for gods sake…aarrgghhh!!! But I should have told him that previously I’d also taken my BBT and my temps corresponded with the OPK’s.

When I told him that even though I was taking progesterone during my IVF cycle that my period arrived 2 days before the beta test he just shrugged and said he didn’t know why, the IVF consultant would be able to tell me more about this! (Which he wasn’t able to do).

I told him that I hadn’t received a positive OPK this month so he offered to give me a scan to find out. So it was back to meeting an old friend…the vagicam!! :o)

He reckoned I had OV’d but couldn’t tell me when, he said he could see the corpus luteum, as he could see the fluid? Maybe he was right about the OPK’s this month?

He said that I didn’t have any symptoms of endometriosis so wouldn’t do a laparoscopy as endometriosis would have shown up before when I was getting all the scans going through the IVF.

The only thing he said he could recommend where Clomiphene tablets. I wasn’t sure what they were, all I knew was it sounded like Clomid so jumped at the chance to try them. Turns out Clomiphene is Clomid. So I’ve got a prescription for 6 months worth of Clomid to try. He said that in a recent study of Scottish hospitals they had found that Clomid didn’t offer any benefit for unexplained infertility until couples had been trying for 3 years. He said as we were approaching the 3 years he thought it was worth a try. He also recommended that we postpone the IVF cycle we’re due to start in March. He said that I’m still young yet!! I feel pretty old at 34 considering that I’ll be 35 in a few months and the quality of eggs are meant to decrease after this age.

I haven’t contacted the IVF clinic to postpone the IVF yet, I’m not mentally/emotionally able to do that just yet. I still feel like I’d be giving away my chance to get pregnant, even though it’ll only be postponed for 6 months whilst I try Clomid. And considering a prescription only costs £4.00 and IVF costs nearly £4,000 it’s well worth trying for the amount of money we’ll save. But I’ll have turned 35 by the second try at IVF by then…. oh I don’t know how I feel apart from hopeful with the Clomid but disappointed at not doing the IVF.

I’ve read a lot about Clomid and the information leaflet the doc gave me yesterday says Clomid has a 58% success rate, crazy when IVF only has a 30% success rate! Why wasn’t I given this option first???? But I am keeping everything crossed, well maybe not everything ;o)

IVF risks

13 01 2010

I received the comment below and wanted to share it, I hope Jan and Steph don’t mind but I honestly didn’t think this was possible.

I, like all other IVF patients I’m sure are told about the risks to their health when going through IVF. But I just didn’t think anything bad would happen to me (luckily nothing did), all I kept thinking was “who cares, I’ll do anything to get pregnant” and I’m sure I’m not alone.

Well the truth is, sometimes things do go wrong and IVF isn’t plain sailing for us all and boy does it sounds very scary!!

This was written by Jan regarding her daughter Steph:

“…she had an extreme reaction to the hormones during the egg retrieval process, (November) and hyperstimulated to the point of being in a critical condition in acute care in hospital. They drained 2 litres of fluid from her abdomen and 1.5 litres from her lungs, she had compromised kidneys and was on high alert for heart failure. She looked 9 months pregnant, was on oxygen as lungs weren’t working enough to keep the oxygen levels in her blood stream up, and had to have 2 blood transfusions for the protein content to help her body. She was oozing fluid out of her legs, and from the puncture wounds in her body, and she gained weight (all fluid) going from 45 kilos to 61 kilos in 2 days. It was such a shock and she was sooooooo very sick, even the specialists where extremely concerned. By the 3rd day she had 3 specialists looking after her. But good news is she has rallied, and has 3 grade A embyros waiting on ice for her when she is fit and well enough to go ahead. “

Cervical what?

8 01 2010

I was at the docs yesterday because I keep getting thrush and wanted it checked out.

Luckily my GP gave me an examination and didn’t just fob me off with pessaries because she told me I have cervical abrasions!! Apparently glands which should be on the inside of the cervix are on the outside, thus producing too much CM which is probably causing the discomfort!

She told me that it can be cautorised and it would heal and become normal again but said that if I am about to embark on IVF again that I shouldn’t bother. Apparently this is quite normal in women who have given birth vaginally. So there’s no point in doing this incase I do get pregnant because it’s likely I’d end up with this anyway… so I’ve jumped a stage basically :o)

I’m just peeved that after all the people who’ve looked at my “who ha” no one has ever noticed this!! And I can’t help wonder if this is stopping me from conceiving naturally. I asked the doc and she said no that it doesn’t affect your fertility but surely if it’s not meant to be like that then it MIGHT be a factor!

So that’s me! It’s not to get treated… seems kinda weird!


5 01 2010

I’ve came across this book and wondered if anyone, any real person, had bought this book and thought it worth the money:

Pregnancy Miracle

I’ve been reading reviews for a couple of weeks now and can’t help thinking it’s all manufactured.

It does offer a 100% refund if you’re not happy with it but I’d still love to find someone who has actually bought it and read it.


Back to the grind!

5 01 2010

Well I survived!!


But that’s just how I’m feeling!

I managed to not see either of my pregnant cousins over the festive season. Luckily we were babysitting my nephew on new years night and that was my excuse to not go visiting!

It was great and one of the best excuses I could have had!

My resolution this year, as it seems to be every year, is to lose weight! I’m going to try and lose 1 stone before April when I’m due to go back for IVF #2. As I’ve tried everything else apart from being skinny, to get pregnant, I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

A girl at work today asked me what my new years resolution was, she joked “to have a baby?”!! She doesn’t know that’s the only resolution that really matters and I laughed and said no, it’s to lose weight so I don’t look pregnant when I’m not! Hope I threw her off the scent :o)

Back at acupuncture tonight which I’m really looking forward to. I’ve only missed one week due to the holidays and I really feel it! When I was last there I was given a back rub with some Chinese oils and it was great! I told Pascal that my mind was racing with thoughts of my cousin being pregnant and he really did help me relax and let go of the overwhelming thoughts for a day or two but they’re back again.. aarrgghhh!

I can’t believe how much this is affecting me. Maybe I should just confront my fear and go see her? Mind you, she won’t tell me that she’s pregnant because I think she’s waiting til she’s been for her 12 scan before she tells anyone. But I can go and visit her Mum, we usually pop in to her house once a fortnight but we’ve not been for ages, I’m dreading it but feel so stupid too!!! God give me strength…

My appointment for the hospital came in during the holidays, I’m back at the sub-fertility clinic for more tests on the 20th. I don’t know what tests they’ll do (or if they’ll even agree to do any) and this is probably only a consultation appt but I’m glad something’s happening again.

Who knows girls, maybe 2010 will be our year! :o)